Ram or Ravan?

Yeah i know i'm certainly goin in circles - touchin upon mundane stuff n out of the blue philosophizing...but vat the *@#^ thats how my brain works.
ive always wondered abt how theres this evil side to me that tempts me into thinkin of mean, unimaginable stuff while am actually doin quite the opposite...(i swear, im no real-time meanie)

there have been times ven i can actually visualize my alterego assume a silvery form (been readin the half-blood prince lately) & carry on as it pleases while daring me to force myself to tread a proper path and puttin myself thru misery. the ram in me chides the devil for bringing in dirt and tries to cleanse the system of such impurities...its not in a singular incident that ive been oscillating amidst such varied perspectives - i have forever sensed the temptation to choose being someone with predisposed criminal tendencies over a soul that is desperately trying to lissen to an inner voice thats religiously (no pun) guiding the self to tread a path of righteousness.....

is that y i can feel a state of dynamics within me? with the good side waging a day-in-day-out battle to ward of traces of ravan that keep climbin up stealthily? vat is it thats so powerful (like the u-know-vat-scar on harry's forehead) to keep me from errin consciously (atleast)? y is it that i choose to lissen to the serene ram however much i feel im losing control & surrendering to ravan? i dont think ive an answer to that one....not a comprehensive one for sure ..

tho on after thot, id like to add, that upbringing probably makes a huge difference......vat say?